Category: 'Forty-two'

Forty years… for many, still only a dream.

Martin Luther King, Jr.

I say to you today, my friends, that in spite of the difficulties and frustrations of the moment, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: “We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal.”

I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at a table of brotherhood.

I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a desert state, sweltering with the heat of injustice and oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.

I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter

From my fambly to yours… have a Happy Easter.

Off To His Next Great Adventure

As a certified geek — a pedigreed geek even — I would be remiss if I should fail to note the passing of E. Gary Gygax, co-creator of Dungeons & Dragons, and the undisputed father of the role playing game.

I was not your typical gamer. The first time I rolled for initiative was a good seven or eight years after I’d first kissed a girl, rather than before. I didn’t game in high school. That may have had something to do with the fact that the high school I attended was a Catholic seminary, which is an environment that doesn’t lend itself toward games that feature fantastical gods and demons; that would have been superfluous, indeed. (The irony of this is not lost on me.) It could be noted that a Catholic seminary is also an environment that doesn’t naturally lend itself toward kissing girls, but that didn’t prove an especially great impediment.

When I first gamed I was a twenty-something kid who had his first real job and a car payment and a girlfriend. I’d already had a few hard lessons on the differences between Intelligence and Wisdom. Still, I was captivated. Enthralled by a world built out of the collective imagination of our brilliant, conniving Dungeon Master (hello, Brian!) and the odd assortment of my fellow nerds, those weekend gaming sessions were a gratifying and indispensable diversion from an increasingly “grown-up” world. Dungeons & Dragons offered explicit permission to play let’s pretend, long after my school days were over, and even as the workaday world threatened to stamp out my sense of wonder and extrude my imagination into a maze of twisty little org charts, all alike.

Thanks, Gary. In a good many ways you helped armor me for the real world.

Life is Too Short for Bad Coffee

Sixty-five! I’d just attended a health and wellness fair and had learned that, in the six weeks since I’d started my new fitness program, my resting heart rate had dropped substantially. I was chuffed enough about the number to share the news with my wife.

“What’s you’re blood pressure?” she asked.

I dithered for a moment… trying to remember. “107 over 95. I think.”

“Um,” she said. “Probably not. If it were your heart would be exploding out of your chest.”

“Oh. Well, maybe it was 85. I wasn’t paying attention, really. I was impressed with my pulse.”

And that was that. Until the pain started a day or two later.

It felt like a muscle cramp at first… a charlie horse in the back of my thigh. I chalked it up to my workout program — I’d just finished a series of grueling rowing sessions — maybe I was trying to take on too much, too soon. I took it easy for a few days, made an effort to drink more water, and to remember to take my vitamins. Five days later the cramping had intensified, and no longer seemed just a muscle… there’s no muscle I know of that spans from calf to thigh along the back of my knee. There are, however, arteries, and veins. That’s when I went to the doctor. And that’s when they found the blood clot.

You’ve probably heard about Deep Vein Thrombosis, or DVT. Several years ago it got some headlines under the banner of “economy class syndrome.” The cramped quarters and general immobility of air travel was revealed as one of the great vectors of the malady; such conditions can cause blood to pool in the lower legs… prime conditions for clotting to occur. You may recall the story of David Bloom, a bright, articulate and healthy NBC news correspondent, who died suddenly in Iraq in 2003 while covering the war. He’d spent much of his time working and sleeping in cramped conditions in a tank and developed a blood clot in his leg that embolized — it rushed through his vascular system to his lungs — he simply collapsed and died.

DVT kills more people every year than AIDS, breast cancer, and motor vehicle accidents combined.
Geno J. Merli, MD, Director of Internal Medicine, Jefferson Medical College, Philadelphia, PA

The past couple of weeks I’ve focused on different numbers. The number of injections of heparin: two a day. Daily dosage of warfarin: five, then seven; now nine milligrams. Chances of the clot throwing off bits and pieces of itself to my heart or my lungs: 50%.

The numbers — and my prognosis — are much, much better now. What with all the rat poison coursing through my veins (funny isn’t it? the active ingredient in the medication that’s thinning my blood and making me well again is also considered a general purpose pesticide!) the chances of an embolism are shrinking every day, as is the clot, itself. By some accounts my risk of a life-threatening embolism are now down to 1 or 2%. I like those odds much better than the coin toss that is an untreated blood clot, and I’m no longer wondering if I’m writing my final blog post. (If I am, remember this… life really is too short for bad coffee.)

While this whole chain of events has played hell with my fitness program — I’m probably weeks away still from resuming my rowing regimen — it’s certainly been a shot in the arm for my pursuit of the whole work / life balance thing. I’ve spent nearly two weeks now completely unplugged from the office, from this site… from just about everything. I’ve read some really good books. I’ve written some scenes that I’m really happy with. I’ve spent some quality time curled up in front of the fireplace with my wife, just watching the snow fall.

Life is good.